Rest & Recovery

Hello Lovelies. My name is Jordan Nicole. Today I am restricted to my bed in an attempt to get over being poorly. I knew I was going downhill earlier this week so I went to the doctor to try and get ahead of it. That was obviously not successful seeing as I am in bed for the weekend. I am aware that I need to rest in order to get better but in the time I've been in my bed I have only gotten worse. I hate being stuck in my bed and it is even harder to stay sitting here when I'm not getting any better. I've cheated quite a bit with cleaning and tidying up my apartment but I need to keep my sanity over here!

In the responsible part of my brain I understand that being stuck in my bed for the entire weekend is going to make my life much easier come Monday... but in the childish part of my brain I just want to get out of bed and go frolic through some fields. I'm sure the pollen would do wonders for my health! The weather has been so gorgeous and the little glimpses I have gotten make me sad that I can't take advantage of the beautiful days before the icky winter weeks come upon us. We are nearly to the last week of January/first week of February and where I'm from that means bad news weather wise.. most of the time at least. Our weather has some personality issues but I'm hoping the therapy might help.

Back to the fact that I am going crazy trying to not be sick anymore. I've always had a hard time with being sick because I don't like to be stuck somewhere. I also am not patient about it. When I start taking medicine I want to instantly feel better. I basically set myself up for disappointment because obviously medicine does not work this way. Why haven't we gotten to that point, by the way? I need magical medical cures researchers, please and thank you. Some of my problems with being sick might stem from my issues with letting other people help me. I broke my foot this past summer and it was one of the most difficult things I've been through, not from the pain which really was awful, but from the dependency it brought into my life. I want to be the caregiver, not the patient. I'm working on that trait.

To top off the fact that I feel horrible and am stuck in bed, I also happened to get my period this week as well. That was just a cruel joke from the universe. Why do I have to add cramps and sore boobs to my congested, head pressure filled body? I am pushing through all of this of course, I just needed a little venting session. I also thought I could ask for any advice on way to accept being stuck in bed for the duration of my sickness. Any ideas? How do y'all push through getting sick? If I don't come up with any new ideas pretty soon then I may be getting out of this apartment and just ignoring being sick for the last day of the weekend!

Hopefully this sickness clears my system fairly soon. Until then...

I'm not there yet, but I'm on my way. 

One of Twelve

Hello Lovelies. My name is Jordan Nicole. 2016 is here. An entirely new year just rolled around so quickly that I am still staring 2014 in the eye. I'm not sure if aging just gives you a different perspective on time or if you just have less variety to break up the years but I feel like I have managed to blink and miss a few.

I don't want to have another year roll by without really taking the time to see it. I think that New Years resolutions are a positive thing but maybe the focus of them should be a little less vain and a little more retrospective. I think that as the digital world becomes a larger part of the real world we all need to be sure to stop and take a harder look at the real one. Experience each moment. Make memories that can break up time because in its essence time is an illusion. Unless you create moments that can define it, then time blurs together.

One of my goals for this year is to live moments. Live them in a way that makes them memorable. I want to cherish my relationships as well as myself. Alone time can be as meaningful as any experience with others. Those are the moments that really define who you are. When you only have yourself then you aren't putting on a facade for the world to see. You are the only person that you know will always be there with you. Might as well get to know yourself.

Lets spend time this year creating memories. Lets spend this year cherishing the time we are given, you can't get it back. Lets spend this year nurturing our relationships with the people who we hold near to our hearts. Lets spend this year changing, observing, learning and growing.

I'm not there yet, but I'm on my way.